Stupid stomach bug

Carlos and I were sick for week, could hardly eat without our stomach protesting in one way or another. This week we are feeling better, but my motivation went out the window. I got up yesterday morning to shred and went down for the second set of push ups and never came back up. I am going to pray for more divine motivation, cause I obviously can't do it on my own. But I think I dropped a few pounds from the stomach bug, so I guess it isn't a total waste.

Another day another Shred

Ok day 4 of the shred is complete. I feel great. The scale isn't moving, but that is ok. My motivation has been through the roof this week and I contribute all that to divine intervention. I prayed for the motivation to change my body and here I am. God is good! Every time I have tried to do this before I found some reason I was able to talk my lazy self out of it, but not this week. This week I can't seem to find a single reason not to get up and work out. Even the age old "I'm sooooooooo tired" doesn't seem to do it. Heck, my son was up, crying until after 9:30pm (my bedtime is 9pm) so I didn't go to sleep until 10pm. Then my husband woke me up at 11pm when he came to bed. Then my son woke up again at 4:00am and cried for 15 or 20 minutes and I still couldn't convince myself to stay in bed and not work out this morning. So yay God!

Sucess

I Shredded Monday morning and Tuesday morning. Tuesday was SOOOO much better than Monday. But I was soooooo sore by the end of the day. Add to that A crink in my neck from sleeping in DS's room and I was a miserable person on Wednesday. I could hardly move in the morning, but it started to let up around 2 or 3 pm. Between the light cough and that soreness, I did not work out yesterday...bad me. But I did workout this afternoon while my son slept. So 3 times this week already. 2 more and I am done with the week! WOOHOO! I also re-weighed myself and it was 194.4. Much much much better than 199+. Gosh that number scared me. It is amazing how much water weight we hold on to on a daily basis. I wish I could say I lost 5+ pounds this week, but I know that isn't true.

Been a while

I have filled that time with eating what I want and being lazy...which was a VERY bad idea. I stepped on the scale the other day and it was WAY too close to 200 pounds, I hopped off before it got the correct read cause it terrified me. I keep thinking a good bit of it has to be water weight, so I am drinking water like a maniac trying to get the bloat to go away.

So this morning, the alarm went off at 5:30am and I left my oh so comfy bed at 5:40am to join Jillian Micheals in the living room for the 30 day shred. Afterward, I was MISERABLE. OMG. It felt like PMS. I was just tired and REALLY REALLY hot. Let me just tell you, working out, then showering and blow drying your hair is NOT pleasant. And Bren woke up around 5:50ish and fussed on and off through my workout and after which didn't help. Then I tried to be a good wife and fix Carlos's shake, the top to the blender is really hard to get on, and with my weak arms it fell over and milk got all over me. At that point I lost it. It wasn't pretty. And now that I am at my desk, I am tired and weak, but I think I will make it through the day. My plan is to do this every morning and maybe get on the elliptical at night. I cannot afford to gain any more weight.

4??

Maybe just maybe we will start working out again. My weight is up to 190, maybe 188. Depressing no matter how you look at it. Carlos wants to start again this week, so I am going to try to do cardio and the 30 day shred at least 3 times this week. I feel so much better after I have done it, but it is so hard to get motivation to do it. Ugh!

Attempt 3?

Carlos is quitting WoW, which means he will have time on his hands, which means we are going to attempt p90x again. This will of course, be dependent on whether or not we clean out the garage this weekend. He told me he thought I wanted to do the 30 day shred to "prepare" myself for p90x, but lets face it, I won't. I have absolutely zero motivation to work out, I am lazy. I can barely get myself to do 10 minutes of cleaning a night, which is my goal to keep the house neater. So far with that goal, my kitchen has been kept fairly clean for the last 2 weeks, and the bedroom is better too. So maybe I am on to something there. But a 20 minute workout, when there is DVR to watch and a comfy couch to lay on...yeah not happening. I keep thinking about it, as my waistline has grown, but like i said I am lazy. But I am very unhappy with how I feel about my body, so I am hoping p90x will get me in the right direction. I might want to die, but I will get over that.

Delay

There has been a further delay in our plans. Carlos's parents are coming to town on the 25th - 28th and so we will wait until Feb 1st to start p90x. Carlos wants to do his normal workouts until then and I am going to do the 30 day Shred. He just isn't motivated yet to do the diet and excersize and frankly, he is a big motivator for me. I can avoid sweets if he is refusing to eat them. I can work out if he is working out too. But when he isn't doing either of those things, well I have no will power. I cannot tell him no, cause I want it too. But I will not tell you how much junk food we have eaten since Thanksgiving, I don't want to even think about it.